Lasto Beth Nin (Hear My Voice)

Saturday, April 19, 2003

9:44 PM

I'd put the lyrics to On My Own because thats like so close to exactly how i feel, but there already here... oh well, the song is my blog for me
I love him!

But when the night is over,

He's gone the river's just a river.

Without him the world around me changes,

The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers.
I'm just gonna play this song over and over till my mom gets home at 11 and then go to sleep
Mood:Like theres a piece of me missing
Song: On My Own

Friday, April 18, 2003

12:51 PM
Bored beyond all reason

* finger chewing
* rambling
* acing like other people
* eating slow.. even tho its not that bad

* keeping my room organized
* helping people when there sad

* no one
* nobody
* nobody the second
* people who have bad intentions and do mean things

* Rhea!
* all of my other friends
* and family

* food
* my body soap
* my hair after being washed with good shampoo
* roses

* mini skirt
* tube top
* abacrombie
* stelettos (really tall, thin heels.. can we say emily's broken ankles)

* cats
* tigers
* horses
* turtles

* Friends
* Lizzie McGuire
* Invader Zim
* Farily Odd Parents

* rappers (unless there MC's from Linkin Park ~_^)
* not sure
* ""
* ""

* water
* milk on my cereal and with desert and sometimes if i feel like it
* sprite
* tea

* chocolate
* cookie dough
* moose tracks
* thin mint

* Ive wanted tolive in Ireland since i was little
* I want a pet tiger
* the ony hobbit actor i dont like is Sean Astin
* i day dream like nobodys buissness ^^

* I have 3 cats (Chocolate, Chip and Cookie)
* My brother has muscular dystorphy
* My moms side of the fmaily has a castle in Ireland that is now owned by Eric Clapton
* My dad used to know hebrew

Pick up a book and write a sentence at random from it.
"Harry and Ron both made furious moves toward Malfoy, but Herminoe got there first- SMACK!. Shehad slapped Malfoy across the face with all the strenght she could muster. Malfo staggered. Harry, Ron, Crabbe, and Goyle stood there flabbergasted..."
-Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban.

Do the same with a lyric from a song.
"I want to heal I want to feel like Im somewhere I belong"
-Linkin Park

Have you ever tried to analyze your own dreams? yeah, i have a dream book
What posters do you have in your room? Eijah, Legalos, and Orlando
Can you sing? yup every chance i get

What's your favorite color of post-it note? blue!

How many cassette tapes do you own? like 3

How many cd's do you own? let see *counts* 30 exactly

Ever bought a cd for just one song? yes

Have you ever lied to get off the phone? probably.. but not recently

Have you ever written a survey? yeah ahaa short one.. i was really bored

How about a song? yup, they all sucked ducks tho.. andi make up random things i dont write down while im walking

Or maybe a poem? yup lots o' them

Are you addicted to Napster? no napster sucks

Ever been in an airplane? yup once.. well2 times cuz i had to get back.. but when i went to FA i went on a plane

If so where were you flying to? oh... i already answered t

What color are your shoes? blue and white

Describe your bedroom - blue with clouds and lots of lotr stuff ^^

Would you ever shave someone else's head? if they wanted me to... (ahah lol anna)

Name your favorite type of music: I like rock.. like linkin park and stuf.. but i like everyhting

Are you a vegetarian? nope.. think of the cows running the earth... scary..

How about an aspiring actor/actress? i wish.. but ill leave that to the really good actors.. some ppl in the play ~_^

What famous person dead or alive would you interview if you had the chance? ooh thats hard... elijah! .. mm or shakespear

What movies do you have almost all the lines memorized to? The Emperors New Goove and LOTR:FOTR

current mood: hungry

current music: Linkin Park

current taste: stupid cereal bar bites

current hair: brown with really old highlights

current dress: PJs ahaha i should really get dressed

current annoyance: im just gonna leave that.. cuz to say it now would be mean..

current smell: my hair

current longing: to have my speech writen.. and that stupid knight onhis white horse that hasn come yet *stil waiting. paciently*

current game: laughing a my cats trying to catch string

current thing I ought to be doing: getting dressed, and writitng my speech

current windows open: none.. its cold

current desktop picture: paradise

current favorite musical artist: i like bands now.. not more the just a peron.. but Avrils cool

current favorite group: Linkin Park

current book: Lord Of The Flies

current cds in stereo: Linkin Park

current refreshment: water

current worry: that ill be so mad and say the wrong thing at someone.. whos making me mad..

current crush: no body :-X

current favorite celeb: Elijah!

current hate: people who are close minded and stupid; and stress

*today have i ..
smiled?: yes
laughed?: yes
cried?: yes (i read rheas blog.. not sure if she ment it for anyone in perticular, but a poem she had reminded me of her and I)
bought something?: no
danced?: nope
were sarcastic?: imalways sarcasic
talked to an ex?: dont have one
watched your favorite movie?: nope

*a last time for everything.......
last book you read: Harry Potter and the Prisioner o Azkaban
last movie you saw: Hary Potter and the Chamber of Secrets @ borders
last song you heard: Figure. 09
last thing you had to drink: water
last time you showered: yesterday
last thing you ate: cereal bar

*do you...
smoke?: no, and never
do drugs?: see above
have sex?: nope
sleep with stuffed animals?: my cat hehe
live in the moment?: sure..?!
have a dream that keeps coming back?:
play an instrument?: guitar, flute, sometimes piano.. but not that good
believe there is life on other planets?: sure..
remember your first love?: havent had it yet
still love him/her?: see above
read the newspaper?: sometimes
have any gay or lesbian friends?: not that i know of
believe in miracles?: yes
believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: like in relationships? if ur really true and care about whatever relationship, u should stay faithful...
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes
consider love a mistake?: no
have a favorite candy?: twixx... anyhing with chocolate and caramel
believe in astrology?: yes
believe in magic?: yes *lives in Harry Potter world*
believe in God?: yes
go to church?: no
do well in school?: i try rea;;y hard, this marking period i did good tho!
go to or plan to go to college?: definately
wear hats?: not really
have any piercings?: ears
have any tattoos?: nope
hate yourself?: no i lerve myself... on most days...
have an obsession?: ahaha yeah.. lotr, hp, elijah, these surveys that no one reads so i dont know y i bother.
have a secret crush?: nope :-X
do they know yet?: well considering my above answer id say no
wish on stars?: prolly
like your handwriting?: when its neat.. but when it gets messy i hate it
have any bad habits?:yes (se waaaaay beining)
care about looks?: kinda but not like obsessed, cuz its really whats on the inside that counts
believe in witches?: in harry potter ^^
believe in Satan?: no

11:07 AM
Who am I?
I have just come to the conclusion that I have no personality that is my own. I always act like the people around me. I dont know who i am. I have so many different levels and likes and hobbies that just different levels shine throuh arund different people.

TwoTowersBegins: but the way you act like katie and regina is scary
TwoTowersBegins: i barely know you anymore
SingnFlagnEmilio: i dont even know me anymore

Somewhere I Belong
I wanna heal I wanna feel
What i thought was never real
I wanna let go all the pain ive held so long
I wanna heal wanna feel
Like im close to something real
I wanna find something i've wanted all along
Somewhere i belong.
-Linkin Park

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
-Linkin Park

Note: Hell week (musical) is this comming week.. so I wont be blogging, wont have time.

Mood: lost
Song: every linkin park song

Thursday, April 17, 2003

10:00 AM
I have a question... Isnt a break when u dont do work? I thought so.. so why are our teachers giving us work? And its not just a worksheet.. Oh no... its more like.. finish ths review packet (which is blank) and write a speech, and while ur at it, y dontcha just ask 40 people what ethical side there on, on your bio project >< stupid work....
Yes.. so i do have to do all that i just mentioned... so I'll be checking in with u guys frequently... letin ya know how im comming... not like u care... but too bad...
Mood: Ready to finish my work
Song:my Kazza playlist.. which is about 34 songs

>< gahhh I cant think of any Pathos... thats like actual facts...about the musical... hmm... lets see...therehersal scehd. was really crazy.. mmm.... i dont know! >< ll go to geo. and ill come back to it.
Mood: Still want to get done
Song: Crawling- Linkin Park

On the ball with my Geo. exam review packet (@_@ ahh exams!!) but i just realized im tying up the phoneline.. so IM gonna get off.. an ill come back when im all done.
Mood: yay so close to being done!.... with my Geo packet...
Song: Through The Rain- Mariah Carey

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

8:33 PM
My Bio Survey
Cloning Human Cells
+ Cloning human cells can be useful to replace faulty or non-functioning cells or organs creating treatments to Parkinson’s disease, diabetes and AIDS.
-- Cloning human cells can be harmful if scientists clone entire humans. It may also go against pro-life supporters because stem cells, cells that can become any cell in the human body, mostly come from blastocyst, or the second developmental stage of an unborn baby.
Please circle one:
Favors cloning human cells Does not favor cloning human cells

Please fill out the following information:

Age (circle one): -10 ; 11-20 ; 21-30 ; 31-40; 41-50 ; 51-60; 60+

Gender (circle one): Female ; Male
Occupation: _________________________
Race: ______________
Religion: ______________

Please comment with the answers even if u happened to trrip over this blog and have no idea who i am! THANX!!
Mood: HOT it is so freaking hot in my house! ><
Song: On My Own (best song ever!!)

Sunday, April 13, 2003

9:19 PM
On my Own
And now I'm all alone again,
nowhere to turn, no one to go to.
Without a home, withouta friend...
without a face to say hello to,
and now the noght is near I can make believe he's here.

Sometimes I walk alone at night.
when everybody else is sleeping..
I think of him and I'm happy with the company I'm keeping,
the city goes to bed and I can live inside my head.

On my own pretending he's beside me,
all alone I walk with him till morning,
without him I feel his arms around me
and when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me.

In the rain the pavement shines like silver,
all the lights are misty in the river,
in the darkness the trees are full of starlight...
and all I see is him and me forever and forever.

But I know it's only in my mind,
that I'm talking to myself and not to him.
And altough I know that he is blind,
still I say, there's a way for us.

I love him!
But when the night is over,
he's gone the river's just a river.
Without him the world around me changes,
the trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers.

I love him!
But every day I'm learning,
all my life I've only been pretending.
Without me his world would go on turning,
a world that's full of happiness that I have never known.

I love him...I love him...I love him,
but only on my own!

9:09 PM
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Don't Look Back

As you travel through life there are always those times when decisions just have to be made. When the choices are hard and solutions seem scarce and the rain seems to soak your parade!

There are some situations where all you can do is to simply let go and move on. Gather courage together and choose a direction that carries you toward a new dawn.

So pack up your troubles and take a step forward the process of change can be tough. But think about all the excitement ahead if you can be stalwart enough!

There could be adventures you never imagined just waiting around the next bend. And wishes and dreams just about to come true in ways you can't yet comprehend!

Perhaps you'll find friendships that spring from new interests as you challenge your status quo. And learn there are many options in life, and so many ways you can grow!

Perhaps you'll go places you never expected and see things that you've never seen. Or travel to fabulous, faraway worlds and wonderful spots in between!

Perhaps you'll find warmth and affection and caring - a "somebody special" who's there. To help you stay centered and listen with interest to stories and feelings you share.

Perhaps you'll find comfort in knowing your friends are supportive of all that you do. And believe that whatever decisions you make, will be the right choices for you!

So keep putting one foot in front of the other and taking your life day by day. There's a brighter tomorrow that's just down the road. Don't look back - you're not going that way!

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About Meee
HIII My name is Emily people call me Em, Ems,Emilio,Emilicious(lol anna) umm.... I LOOOOVE LOTR! SO MUCH! Singing, acting, and dancing is my life I also really love art and writitng. If im not talking, singing, or acting, im daydeaming. ehehe I really love sports too like Soccer, Football, Volleyball, Baseball.. all that..And sometimes.. i can be really crazy.. like really wow crazy... but now is not one of those times... maybe.

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